I f i were...

I'm inconsistent person, I'm easily influenced by other people .
I'm a blind girl who cant do anything alone, cause I cant see anything around me, I just can feel it, hear some commotion sound. who am I?

I have a story...
one day I went to some where who made me enjoy and relax. but I need someone to accompany me, for lead me. He held me, he accompanied me to go there. in that street there are two roads that I must choose it. at first I followed him at the right side. In that road I hear there someone who call my name. he said "nikky, where are you going, let's follow me, I will invite you to beautiful place"
I stopped and i followed him, she held me and he led me. I left the first guy who drove me from home.

on the way he's very care with me, he gave me ice cream, he gave me chocolate and etc. after i got in that place, I smelled fragrance of lavender and I can feel the fresh air in there. 
a few minute later I heard his voice, I called him many times but he didn't answer me.
actually he left me. I cried, I didn't know what I must do in that condition. no one care to me.

a few minute after I cried I heard boy and girl laugh and I know that voice. it turned out he left me and he have fun with other girl. it's hurt.

now I realized If I were with someone who accompany me from home I would never ever leave him. i would be with him. That chance was gone. I was a inconsistent person. I was so freak. just for someone like evil and I must expense of those who love me. I was so stupid person at that time. i knew.. i regret it at that time but fow now i've learn from it.. It should not be so but my life must move on..

If im a bella swan

Breakingdawn part 2 : at friday16 november 2012, mandala  at 01:00 pm .

since at 11:00 am mandala's cinema there are a lot of people who wanna watch breakingdawn part 2. today is holiday so I can go to the cinema with Levy, hanum and Mbak dinda.

Gold ticket :)

in this movie bella swan begin her new life as a vampire, she is happy, she is a strong girl, she is beautiful. as a vampire bella will be young for a long time, bella never feel tired. bella's family is a vegetarian, so that they keep their lust for not drink human's blood.

The first time she's become a vampire

I'm so proud with bella because she loves edward that initially. she is a human than she follow edward to be a vampire. edward's brother is less powerfull than bella. bella is a stronger one until edward proud to have wife like bella until they have a daughter that she also have a strength and she have different way for show her strength. bella is very fond with her daughter until she do anything for her safety. she is a good and the best mom for her daughter.

Bella and her daughter (renesmee)

Bella is amazing. if i am Bella..

I will be keep my family from any crime, I can do everything that I like, I can flying free around a lake, forest, waterfall freely with it. I can enjoy the beauty for living in this world.

I'm very scared when my face become older, i wanna my face remain as now. I really really want to be a vampire.

if i'm a vampire I will help someone special in my heart because I have shield so when I know someone special was hurt by others I can protect him well. beside that I also can protect my family from some crimes.

beside that shield have another special thing again. when I have shield I can show what's my feeling that how much I love him. I also can show the special moment from beginning we met until now it's just with we  look eyes each other, it's become very sweet thing for having realantionship. I think she is a perfect vampire. if one day I can be like bella I will do anything for someone special and be required for someone who need my help :)

bella showed that how much she loved edward

Adventure, Abstract and Adventure

Talk about life it’s too much, it’s the large thing contained a lot of sense in it. Every people have different mean for life. Every people have the different way for live their life. Sometimes life is a game, sometimes life is abstract, sometimes life is adventure.

Life is a game and adventure. There are lose and win. Every people want to try, have the power of survive in live they will be the winner, it’s very different when the people haven’t feel to try, they give up about they life, they say that it's imposible thing  then the other. It’s make somebody losing the spirit of their life. 

There are some competition in life, like competition for get schoolarship, to get first rank in the class, to be a leader. Actually there are lose and win again. In this problem it’s depend on the each people. When they want to try they will get things they want. But in this life also there are a little thing that is miracles, we can call it as LUCKY.

Life is abstrak because when someone ask to us about life, we will confused what will we answer this question. We can’t answer it details  one by one because it will too much and waste our time, right? Happiness sadness always together with us. As a human we will feel the sadness although it’s very bad thing. Without sadness I think our life is not wonderfull. From sadness it will change it become a crying. With crying we will statisfy. 

Sometimes we call it abstrak because we don’t know how to start our life to reach our future. We want do things that we like but sometimes we don’t know the way. 

Life is a great adventure :)

Life is so hard but beside that Life is Beautiful :)

Happiness, Laugh and Love

Life ??

For me life is wonderfull, 

Life is happiness, Laugh and Love

I Love my Life like I love my self :) 

Many kinds of thing that make me happy and enjoy in life. such as my family, my friends, and some people who care with me.

Family? For me family is important thing in my life, without them I can’t live perfectly, My mom, my dad, my brother and my sister. I love them so much, they are like a part of my life. Place for me to cry when I have some problem, place for me to complain about something, and family is the one who can understand me well.

Togetherness, it’s the special thing I have. Since I lived in dormitory I can’t met my family everyday, but my family always care and love me.

Sometimes, I call my family and I also view their pictures when I miss them. There are so many happiness of my family and I. Although my family was far away with me  but i always feel that my family is near and accompany me everyday.

when my family come to the dorm :) 

Spend my time with family that can't be forgotten :)

 With my beloved friends :)

Friend is the important thing too in life. without friends I can't feel the beauty in this life. you can feel up and down, challenges for success, competition,happiness, sharing some problem that you can't share it with our parent,friendship and Love :)I love friendship, I love friends :) No one can beat my friendship ..

In  junior high school I have some best friends and everybody called  us SMAKYNOW. There are Sesil, Maya, Amel, Ista, me, Novita, Wilda and  Lilik. We have been together for 3years .

SMAKYNOW third anniversary :)

One of us as a cameramen :) 

 SMAKYNOW graduation in junior high school :)

Me,Maya,Wilda,lilik,ista,Sesil,Amel and Novita 

 My another bestfriend, when we went to the jakarta-bandung for studytour :)

 Ista, Amel, Wilda, me and Anggi

Full laugh in this picture :) 

  

In Senior High school I have new family, SAMPOERNA ACADEMY is my big family . and I love spread our wings song so much. when all of us sing it I feel very proud of myself. 

this is the beloved song :)

SPREAD OUR WINGS

I can dream the impossible

I fear not the obstacles

For if I believe in me

I can make it possible

I’ll shine my light for all to see

For a gem can’t be polished without frictions

Nor man perfected without trials

We all take different paths in life

But no matter where I go

I will feel safe knowing that

We’re all together in this journey

For we are one big family

There’all always be time for sharing

And caring for each other,

Even when we are far apart

Chorus:

Like an eagle we spread our wings

Soaring high  in the sky of dreams

Always strive to be very best

And help others to soar as high

We remember the start

We will go through the journey

We will reach the goals

Let’s lend our hands to our brother and sister

Let’s make a brighter tomorrow for others

Make their impossible dreams possible

For when we believe, when we are together

We can make a difference

Nice togetherness :) I love it :)

House Mantaray :) our happiness, togetherness I will never forget it. and I have mom here. Miss Ria :) I love youu 

 My friend in tenth grader :) (conan Class)

Now I have ecsotic or XI social 5. I really feel comfortable in this class. I'm so gratelful in ecsotic, I don't want lose they smile, laugh and etc. :)

My friends who can understand me more, I always share my problem, share about all. so thank's for them. I love you friends :) smile for me and always support me :)

This is me and pahlevy my beloved roomate :)

Another Laugh we have in A38 . they are my beloved sister 

Mbak dinda, Me and Hanum

My bestfriends. usually I share all things I have with them :)

Me, Nia and Evi

Evi, Me, Nia and Titin

I love friends, for me without friends I can't have some happiness day everyday, than's for all that you're always give me some support, advice me and care with me. I love you guys :)