I f i were...

I'm inconsistent person, I'm easily influenced by other people .
I'm a blind girl who cant do anything alone, cause I cant see anything around me, I just can feel it, hear some commotion sound. who am I?

I have a story...
one day I went to some where who made me enjoy and relax. but I need someone to accompany me, for lead me. He held me, he accompanied me to go there. in that street there are two roads that I must choose it. at first I followed him at the right side. In that road I hear there someone who call my name. he said "nikky, where are you going, let's follow me, I will invite you to beautiful place"
I stopped and i followed him, she held me and he led me. I left the first guy who drove me from home.

on the way he's very care with me, he gave me ice cream, he gave me chocolate and etc. after i got in that place, I smelled fragrance of lavender and I can feel the fresh air in there. 
a few minute later I heard his voice, I called him many times but he didn't answer me.
actually he left me. I cried, I didn't know what I must do in that condition. no one care to me.

a few minute after I cried I heard boy and girl laugh and I know that voice. it turned out he left me and he have fun with other girl. it's hurt.

now I realized If I were with someone who accompany me from home I would never ever leave him. i would be with him. That chance was gone. I was a inconsistent person. I was so freak. just for someone like evil and I must expense of those who love me. I was so stupid person at that time. i knew.. i regret it at that time but fow now i've learn from it.. It should not be so but my life must move on..

If im a bella swan

Breakingdawn part 2 : at friday16 november 2012, mandala  at 01:00 pm .

since at 11:00 am mandala's cinema there are a lot of people who wanna watch breakingdawn part 2. today is holiday so I can go to the cinema with Levy, hanum and Mbak dinda.

Gold ticket :)

in this movie bella swan begin her new life as a vampire, she is happy, she is a strong girl, she is beautiful. as a vampire bella will be young for a long time, bella never feel tired. bella's family is a vegetarian, so that they keep their lust for not drink human's blood.

The first time she's become a vampire

I'm so proud with bella because she loves edward that initially. she is a human than she follow edward to be a vampire. edward's brother is less powerfull than bella. bella is a stronger one until edward proud to have wife like bella until they have a daughter that she also have a strength and she have different way for show her strength. bella is very fond with her daughter until she do anything for her safety. she is a good and the best mom for her daughter.

Bella and her daughter (renesmee)

Bella is amazing. if i am Bella..

I will be keep my family from any crime, I can do everything that I like, I can flying free around a lake, forest, waterfall freely with it. I can enjoy the beauty for living in this world.

I'm very scared when my face become older, i wanna my face remain as now. I really really want to be a vampire.

if i'm a vampire I will help someone special in my heart because I have shield so when I know someone special was hurt by others I can protect him well. beside that I also can protect my family from some crimes.

beside that shield have another special thing again. when I have shield I can show what's my feeling that how much I love him. I also can show the special moment from beginning we met until now it's just with we  look eyes each other, it's become very sweet thing for having realantionship. I think she is a perfect vampire. if one day I can be like bella I will do anything for someone special and be required for someone who need my help :)

bella showed that how much she loved edward